mei 🌒& @ckie@pixie.town

@x4nw holy shit,,

@gremlins i'm still like this (search term: ARFID)

personally it's an overlap of a bunchh of things -- way more than anyone could conceivably explain concisely.

- there's a workaround: food-as-drink supplements like PediaSure (me) or maybe the soylent kinda stuff (no idea..) — pediasure has quitee a few tastes and one of them works for me and tastes horrible to almost everyone else in my life, but it's expensive unless you have insurance to cover it or something..

- divide food into little squares or such — i.e. splitting it into subgoals
- do a relaxing activity at the same time; basically meditation. by default i just reject food-tastes and assume they're bad. if i play piano and get into flow state, my anxieties relax and.. i can taste things:

it takes a while to accept this sensory invasion the food inflicts on me.. but, sometimes its good..

that panic response they're having sounds like a horrible complex to contend with.. and the confrontation-feel of it before that panic is alsoo uh, Not An Optimal Environment. feeling like they're on the clock. feeling like they have to eat a certain minimum so it's easier to not engage with the task at all.

i'd say, don't eat too alongside them — that'd just make me try to mask — but just, hold their hand and ask them to be brave because they need this.

please don't overtly nudge. their tummy is probably already doing *plenty* of that, and they need to listen to their tummy, not you.

good luck to you two, it's a long journey but they can do it <3

(p.s. consider finding a parent group to vent to about this!! it's a lot for you too)

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@vogelchr @kescher 3x

@oracle good luck!

@nachtfunke thx for the dots offset svg pattern :> helped me out makin a lil roomie banner and it looks very cute w it :>

i need someone to headpat me and count my headmates

@joepie91 can you give an example for something recent?

@elsie hey, take care <3

@elsie yeah

one of those nights a bit here too now.. i was wondering if maybe you already got it. it's really not weird to be this honest. to be living after the end of the book.

in popular culture i think *three body problem* nailed it,, - this kind of blind pessimism most of us implicitly hold from trying to shield what we do have, and leaving those very remaining things bare in the process..

i guess i just look back at the past most nights though.

i wanna analyze three body problem more it seems so tastefully written at a distance

@elsie i really recommend this: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=DalnJ-isI5A - the world isn't ending, it's getting squeezed down, is in a period of decline. we won't have the privilege of an explosive sudden ending, rather everything just goes on// the good and the bad.

take care juno <3