mei 🌒& @ckie@pixie.town

cute beings bite on their ed25519 private key once a day to make sure it doesn't expire!

@joepie91 damn. it looks like the one unaffiliated libp2p-based project i could think of ([MessageHub](https://github.com/search?q=repo%3Agdlol%2FMessageHub+libp2p+&type=code&p=2)) is basically just using them as an overlay network too, which is a shame.

i suppose the primary libp2p project then is the big amount of docs about the underlying concepts & it just happens to come with some example code 💜 (probably)

@joepie91 its that bad.? i figured maybe 70% of the ideas are implemented when i read their docs a while ago

@clerie this is so good!! <3

@joepie91 @f0x i dont know nl but i feel like this is a good post

are you my hdr tonemapping algorithm

omg... omg.. *hyperventilates*

@tastytea@very.tastytea.de the eyeshadow is so good ​ chaos enby!! :3

@bun dont umean types of girls

@bun these are good tho ​🐰

love is the ultimate force
love is the ultimate force
love is the ultimate force..

for the things we do that make us become who we are
for the things we say

i do write the alt text and i do write the CWs and i don't post the way i feel about the rise of fascism or what i think im built from mentally and i guess i can also handle the posty box being tiny

but after all that shit i have no energy left here if i want to post more deeply about how i feel, to make friends with my thoughts, to let someone relate, to not worry about whether my thought has good vibes because it feels like i'll get nuked if i fuck up once because my brain decided to be mean to me and i needed to write it somewhere so my friends can know whats up. so even if that probably wont happen i cant relax and just write stream-of-thoughts and livepost.

all of these are Not A Big Deal, a Tolerable Cost but there are simply too many!! what to do??

this platform is accursed. i have a thought. i'd like to post it.
- i open the webby site
- i get my brain bombarded by 3-5 other posts without even scrolling
- i TRY to remember what it was, and write it
- i need to figure out what CWs fit
- i probably can't post it if it's too controversial or triggering to someone
- i'm so, so tired of writing alt text and i've yet to know someone blind even
- with every word i write i can feel the thousand retorts e.g. "oh but im autistic and i rely on those alt texts too" well guess what its my post and im autistic too
- i read more posts i dont care about here or can do nothing to help with than just about any other platform, email or twitter or cohost are *all* better at this
- i am currently focused on the lists tab of the masto ui to not see the live post feed (even twitter has a "Show $x tweets" popup when theres more to read!!)
- i'd like to write deep posts but this community feels shallow as heck and i have 88 followers currently which is an absurd number of people to be reading my inner thoughts. pls let me post to a list and have that be more direct and separate from the big tl. fuck i might just host a mailing list for this.
- i have seen the same post 2382374 times because it shows you it again when another mutual boosts it?? come on..
- why cant i click on a hashtag and mute it
- why cant i write a filter for a single mutual
- why cant i limit the range of posts i see. i dont wanna see posts of someones friend's friend's friend's friend. [that's too many people to worry about](https://cohost.org/pervocracy/post/1514198-but-what-about-t), i cant fit them all in my heart.
- why cant i see my friends posts. no i dont care if they're on masto.social i just wanna see their posts in my client. goddamn

probably more missed

@joepie91 i do want this thing to get off me in the sense that it's transformed me into one who wishes for so much more

@joepie91 ​: computer, server, android? whatever.

@reese ​ if u wan

@akirapink i usually last about 15-20 min with 3 lil ice squares but i think a bit longer could b better

@akirapink as an rsi-haver i've liked putting your hands in a tub of icy water and then letting them rest for a while. apparently the cold acts like an anti-inflammatory but u cant b typing right after