mei 🌒& @ckie@pixie.town

this platform is accursed. i have a thought. i'd like to post it.
- i open the webby site
- i get my brain bombarded by 3-5 other posts without even scrolling
- i TRY to remember what it was, and write it
- i need to figure out what CWs fit
- i probably can't post it if it's too controversial or triggering to someone
- i'm so, so tired of writing alt text and i've yet to know someone blind even
- with every word i write i can feel the thousand retorts e.g. "oh but im autistic and i rely on those alt texts too" well guess what its my post and im autistic too
- i read more posts i dont care about here or can do nothing to help with than just about any other platform, email or twitter or cohost are *all* better at this
- i am currently focused on the lists tab of the masto ui to not see the live post feed (even twitter has a "Show $x tweets" popup when theres more to read!!)
- i'd like to write deep posts but this community feels shallow as heck and i have 88 followers currently which is an absurd number of people to be reading my inner thoughts. pls let me post to a list and have that be more direct and separate from the big tl. fuck i might just host a mailing list for this.
- i have seen the same post 2382374 times because it shows you it again when another mutual boosts it?? come on..
- why cant i click on a hashtag and mute it
- why cant i write a filter for a single mutual
- why cant i limit the range of posts i see. i dont wanna see posts of someones friend's friend's friend's friend. [that's too many people to worry about](https://cohost.org/pervocracy/post/1514198-but-what-about-t), i cant fit them all in my heart.
- why cant i see my friends posts. no i dont care if they're on masto.social i just wanna see their posts in my client. goddamn

probably more missed

@joepie91 i do want this thing to get off me in the sense that it's transformed me into one who wishes for so much more

@joepie91 ​: computer, server, android? whatever.

@reese ​ if u wan

@akirapink i usually last about 15-20 min with 3 lil ice squares but i think a bit longer could b better

@akirapink as an rsi-haver i've liked putting your hands in a tub of icy water and then letting them rest for a while. apparently the cold acts like an anti-inflammatory but u cant b typing right after

@daughterofrao@weirder.earth morny friends! ​

@elilla thank you! acquiring now..

@elilla hey,, i am kids these days, do you have reading recommendations? . i've built up a lot of this mindset on my own but it'd be great to have other works to read

good morny fedi!! ​

@alina good job alina!!

@kescher cutee:3

@tthbaltazar@chaos.social mm well damn

@tthbaltazar@chaos.social i think dp cables are supposed to short some of those pins together? (no idea dont trust me)

@schrottkatze @ahfrom ​

@schrottkatze @ahfrom so u see the thing here is you should be asking yourself "did the neurotypical first think of *groaned* as a person thing and never change their categorization or attempt to communicate something more complicated?"

@artemis hey this is our biannual median current gender! ​

@follpvosten this is a good anthropomorphization