Sven Slootweg (soft-deprecated) @joepie91@pixie.town

Tumblr reminded me of how totally bullshit it is that the aspd criteria is almost entirely based on surveying prison populations. Like, zero acknowledgement that uhhhh maybe it’s a problem that we seemingly have a large amount of disabled people being imprisoned? because of their disabilities? no? nothing?

Every time I talk abt this, I have to hold back so much from giving surface level critiques of it. & by that I mean saying “you’re just jealous I’m better at degration than you are.” It does nothing at all to say that, but god do I want to

It’s so fucking apparent to me that that’s what it is, cuz I know from personal experience that it is. I had adults straight up argue that my abuse was justified because I was “difficult” & “talked back.” Am I supposed to just sit there & not ask questions? You can’t expect to raise “good people” then get pissed off when they stand up for what’s right. You don’t actually want the world to be better atp, you just want to virtue signal that you’re a “good person” by pretending to raise your kids with morals. All the while, following white supremacist nonsense, & other oppression systems below it.

I genuinely cannot understand how people who can’t assimilate themselves into an unjust society are the “bad guys.” Or why so many people on the left will actively continue that narrative while also espousing that you can’t work within the systems that be. Like. You’re so close to getting it buddy. Maybe stop calling sociopaths “monsters” for 5 seconds & you’ll realize the type of person you’re talking about is the type of person you’re aspiring to be, but can’t be, bc you haven’t yet unlearned the false moral playbook you were given.

It’s like the least “has criteria at all” disorder in the dsm. I swear to god it only exists as an excuse to jail people society doesn’t like very much. There’s a reason oppositional defiance disorder & conduct disorder are diagnosed a lottttt more in populations of color than in white communities. Maybe if we didn’t have a major social stigma against people who are just existing & wouldn’t be harmful if we weren’t ableist dicks to them, then they wouldn’t be harmful & need so much help. Just a hunch. I’m this way because people were dicks to me early enough in my life that it permanently fucked with my brain structure. & the overlap between aspd & developmental disabilities only makes that worse, cuz like. We know exactly why people act like that. It’s the disabilities you’re born with, then once you develop new ones because you’re being abused, it’s those that are targeted most. It’s like you can’t win. Ok cool, I wasn’t capable of surviving without maladaption the fucking olympic sport, & that makes me even more worthless somehow? Oh & also excuses all of the abuse I faced?

Like just SAY you want a valid reason to mistreat disabled people & be done with it. That’s all it is. It’s people who were never taught to be understanding, meeting people who throw red flags up in their brains, & instead of getting to know why it is that this type of person unsettles you so much, you abuse them & claim it’s self defense because you’re just soooo dangerous & scary & they were only protecting themself against you because you’re a ticking timebomb & they noticed that & they’re such a victim. Give me a break. Even other disabled people often have awful opinions on apathetic people who can’t, or don’t want to, integrate into society. Like as if being disabled means we must be nice pushovers to “make up for it.” There’s nothing to make up for, I’m just existing & if that’s a problem, that’s more telling of your worldview than mine.

I swear to god it is ENTIRELY because I saw nothing wrong with being disabled as a little kid, & others didn’t like that I didn’t hate myself for it, so they had to give me a reason to hate myself.

Good lord. Talk of the ruination of the web on here today I decided to see what it was like just straight up raw dogging my browsing habits for a little while. No ad blockers, no blocking cookie popups etc.

People actually USE this?!

And there are lots of other examples where folks seem to bargain with extractive technologies and avoid the debate about environmental damage by talking about the good intentions and organization of the makers.