also something about aestheticization of sadness etc
@f0x the only times i've actually written stuff is when i wasn't paying attention at all the meta stuff and how it'd be perceived. got some feels from something and built on them.
even if you want your writing to be more controlled sloppy bad art seems to be a precursor. embrace it.
@f0x i say "seems to be" because my standards and judgement are way ahead of my writing skills currently
not sure if that's always a bad thing though, it reminds me of vibes over plot. aesthetics can still be meaningful?
https://youtu.be/_YTRVKCiO_4