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why does a fucking videogame have enough sway to damage me like this. a FUCKING videogame. and why can't I be spared from seeing it for just one minute

Maybe I should start setting my visibility settings to unlisted by default just so I don't keep forgetting to keep my negative posts off public TLs

I tried to reframe my experiences with FFXIV in my head and put better purposes and goals for myself in it

I tried to log back in after months, and the anxiety still hit me hard

And it only got worse as people started interacting with me, more and more, even though I said I wasn't comfortable

Why am I like this?

today's pretty much a wash for me, I think. depressed enough that it's making me feel physically lightheaded

anyone want to talk about stuff that's made them happy today instead?

keep forgetting filters, and there are some posts that don't even have anything to filter. this is going to be a long six months

right, filters now contain ffxiv, shadowbringers, 5.3... eeeehhh let's add the fan-favourite fash to the list too just to be safe. I know people are going to bring them up and I know they're going to be weirdly horny about them

Time to mute FFXIV from my TL for the next... *checks watch* eh, who am I kidding, everyone will burn through the content in like three days and I'll be coming in to a ghost town when I resub to do a just-in-case check on my house and do Moonfire.