Elfi @elfi@pixie.town

@gavi keeping an eye on the eepy kaiju

@gavi I wasn't aware of this until relatively recently either, but also I tend to feel Christmas is really overstated, so learning about it was just kinda neat and felt relatable :'D

@gavi uwah

I'm okay without! Thank you <3

@trysdyn when all you have is a hammer, everything looks like a binary space partition

I want to thank everyone again who helped get me to my mom in her final days. Everyone who took me out places when I needed some time to enjoy life again. (Granted, some overlap there, so doubly thank you Karma <3)

I want to thank all of my partners who offered a shoulder and unyielding love through every hard moment this has brought on for the past six-odd months, and in turn given me the strength to support you through trying times too.

I may need to lean for support again through this time, but I want to let you know for sure it won't go unappreciated

My birthday's in four days.

It's been over six months since my mom's passing and today I seem to be especially hit hard by it because I realize it'll be my first birthday without her around anymore.

I went back over some of my posts and the goings-on around that time and I realize the listlessness I've been feeling is the same numb grief keeping me awake late at night and unable to look forward back then.

I think about my birthday now and I feel even more nothing than I have past birthdays.

@gavi the groundwater here is some of the best, enough that profiteering corporations are bottling it up for their own use, but there's a water softener for the apartment building that downgrades it from "paragon of freshness" to "okay I guess"

@gavi @sunflower@plush.city alas and alack for me to not be discord friends with you

I'll just keep an eye out for anything you throw on the TL then, no worries

@arina honestly not having one doesn't stop me from nuzzling my cat so I get it, it's fun to do regardless of configuration

@sunflower@plush.city @gavi tagging into this for the flood of cat pics

@sunflower@plush.city @gavi@wandering.shop tagging into this for the flood of cat pics

@Zennistrad Yeah, I think FFXIV really deconstructs player agency in a similar but inverted way to Deltarune though. Sure, you're your own self, but in the main scenario, as the Warrior of Light you don't have any choice but forward, and eventually even find out you're not even your own person, just a reincarnation of one of the paragons, Azem

Contrast Deltarune, where Kris is evidently their own person, but steered--perhaps unknowingly at first--by the player without any of their own agency except when they can break free. God knows, after how forcefully they screamed they were upset by Spamton after I let them, I'd love to just sit down, listen to them, and ride in tandem if they're willing to permit it! But also as the plot goes, the player has very little agency in the experiment too

Interestingly, I've read that Ar Nosurge explores this whole player control/character agency thing with the Interdimend system being a tangible interface that the player uses to control EARTHES/Delta that ties into a lot of the dimensional physics of the series, but it also has a lot of racy bits so I've shied away from messing with it myself, because as a person my agency is particularly bothered by being forced into saying things I'd never want to because of the limitations of the fourth wall

@mos_8502 @Fury there's been an alarming number of drug shortages and I'm concerned that I never hear any coverage of it

@Zennistrad oh yeah, FFXIV's got that in spades too. The agency in the story of that game can be lacking at times