Life, death, and insomnia
My birthday's in four days.
It's been over six months since my mom's passing and today I seem to be especially hit hard by it because I realize it'll be my first birthday without her around anymore.
I went back over some of my posts and the goings-on around that time and I realize the listlessness I've been feeling is the same numb grief keeping me awake late at night and unable to look forward back then.
I think about my birthday now and I feel even more nothing than I have past birthdays.
Life, death, and love
I want to thank everyone again who helped get me to my mom in her final days. Everyone who took me out places when I needed some time to enjoy life again. (Granted, some overlap there, so doubly thank you Karma <3)
I want to thank all of my partners who offered a shoulder and unyielding love through every hard moment this has brought on for the past six-odd months, and in turn given me the strength to support you through trying times too.
I may need to lean for support again through this time, but I want to let you know for sure it won't go unappreciated