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weird dream/sleep stuff 

So last night I somehow managed to consciously switch back and forth between a waking and a dream state; perceiving my actual bedroom one moment, and a different bedroom in a dream the other moment, and back and forth like that at will.

This involved deliberately inducing/ending sleep paralysis as well.

I have previous experiences with lucid dreaming, but this is definitely a new level of control over the process - it was like I had a KVM switch that could arbitrarily switch out what my senses were connected to, my actual senses or 'simulated' senses in a dream.

Part of what drew me to video and computer games and even some productivity software in the years before the 00's was how strange and otherworldly they looked, even if unintentionally.

The colors were "off" and strange and the visuals of the art and even the text was like nothing you'd see in reality, an alien thing trying to be something it only sort of understands.

When VGA became the norm colors became less weird but were still strong and popping and the low resolution gave everything eye catching sharp corners. The only antialiasing you got was coming off the CRT that didn't really do sharp pixels, not like LCD/LED displays.

Then after around the early to mid 00's games began to consistently look good with high end graphics and things just stopped being interesting.

There's modern games that employ "retro" pixel art and such but most tend to miss the point of what made things visually fascinating for me. A few do manage, tho.

Anyway what I'm trying to say is that #ENA is pretty damn good.

[edit: we are apparently NOT getting kicked out on the 14th, as long as we "work with them to find a job", whateverthefuck that means; still, options might be nice]

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we're in the SF Bay Area

it doesn't look like we're gonna be able to find a job in time, let ALONE an apartment

can anyone help?

#MutualAid #NeedHousing

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One of the weirder corporate plot twists is definitely how Stardock, developer of notoriously unstable Windows customization tools, now publishes... grand strategy games

once again i really like how the first FPS ever was a game in which you just kill nazis

fuck the american payment network oligopoly

to use a well-known example

only ONE EIGHTH of goodwill's profit actually goes towards their charity programs

and that's not even getting started on how they massively underpay their disabled workers

themighty.com/topic/disability

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I'm replacing the phrase "electrical spelunking" with the more poetic "hunting lighting" after spending another day running around to find where some of the illuminating magic flows in #ThisOldClownHouse.

On our list of victories today is getting the impressive street light, which shines over most of the front of the building, working.

Eventually we need to get this monster on a timer, but for now we are cheerfully lit.

rant, puritan culture 

I'm so fucking tired of this puritan bullshit. This nonsense that adult content needs to be banned everywhere because it bad. This nonsense that queer content must be suppressed to "protect the kids". How tired of this are we now

Wondering what collaboration software might look like that encourages you to regularly take breaks and step away every once in a while

Element/Matrix governance 

My view on the whole thing, based on the changes that have been occurring so far:

I think it's probably a good thing that Element is no longer the primary driver of governance in Matrix; that seems to be resolving a bunch of long-standing tensions.

On the other hand, it has indisputably left a governance vacuum. And I wish this would have been avoided when people warned for this earlier.

Times are rough, this casino in Vegas uses unlicenced Windows on their parking ticket machines

nope nope sorry still incapable of reading the "/pos" tone indicator as anything else than "piece of shit"

violence, salvation army 

@joepie91 @vantablack

I was told about exactly the same thing being done by them on the NL squatter/party scene, but as long ago as 1997-1999!

here's your periodic holiday reminder that FUCK THE SALVATION ARMY

they're a queer hate organization. don't fucking donate to them. only shoplift from their stores. tell their solicitors to eat rocks

Keep thinking about how this post applies to kink fantasies. So many of us want someone to just take us away and push us in exactly all the ways we want to be pushed. But that's not how it works. To get to that level of rapport with someone you need to communicate first.

It's not as sexy but just asking for what you want is way more likely to get you there.

Ok, here's a crumb.

During the height of BLM, 'liberals' thought the rest of us couldn't see them.

Oh, we did.
We clocked everything.

And we saw how weak their politics actually were and what grounded them.

Which is why, election cycle after election cycle, y'all can't bust a grape, relying on Black and brown women and youth to literally snatch your nuts from the fire.

Y'all are exhausting.
Just tiring.

re: long, frustration about political conversations 

This exact problem is also a big part of why I only view peaceful bridge building between different perspectives as a tool in the toolbox, and not as a universal solution; sometimes it cannot bridge this gap in lived experience, and the only remaining options are the ones where you put your foot down and draw a line.

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long, frustration about political conversations 

One of the most frustrating things to deal with is people making assumptions about how (social/political) systems work, and the reality being so far off that you can't possibly correct them without sounding like you're making shit up.

Like this persistent idea that journalists are careful purveyors of the truth and facts, and then you have to explain to people that they also just copy-paste the government press releases without checking anything, that many journalists have genuinely never *considered* the possibility that these government sources may be lying, that they have full uncompromising faith in the government.

And if you tell people this, they're like "surely that can't be right, someone would have noticed", because the person you're talking to has a fundamental distrust of the government, but the journalist has a fundamental trust, and likely neither could even imagine the other party's perspective being real, because their lived experiences are so far apart.

And then you're left 'inbetween' them with your data and evidence, and it doesn't matter what the answer is, because at least one of them will disbelieve you no matter what conclusion you draw and no matter how much evidence you supply.

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