Sven Slootweg (soft-deprecated) @joepie91@pixie.town

it's kinda funny. the corporate "metaverse" is sterile and boring, but the less boring one is completely unsellable. strange how some services work like that

kimsufi's renewal emails are from validation-world, which sounds like a weird theme park

-- demon dog 🔥

Honestly the worst thing about being disabled is that you're so used to pushing down your needs and being told that the thing that makes you special is actually all a bunch of "negative traits and things to improve on" really hits hardest that you realise this was all targeted, when they say "lazy and unmotivated" they mean disabled people.

They mean disability. Because that was the point of these words, they were always designed to shame people who were not neurotypical. And now they are used to shame people again, but now, we do it through paperwork, hiding behind pens and suits.

When they say "you can't just expect us to change everything for you" They mean the extra requirements to level the playing field, the reasonable adjustments that look, to them, like a nice easy rest. They expect you to be un-disabled eventually, even if they say they don't, they are hoping that it will become a non-issue eventually.

"You can't just expect people to help you with all your paperwork all the time that's lazy"
No, it's my disability. Remember how people used to discriminate against people with chronic fatigue and those who use wheelchairs? They called them lazy. Yeah.

It's always that when you boil it down. And the program of "performance management" is nothing more than targeted harassment. It's a threat, designed to make you aware that you are being watched, and that you will need to put extra effort in.

Of course as a disabled person, you don't actually have any extra effort to give. You borrow it from elsewhere, you drag yourself up the stairs. People think that's time from earlier or later but it's actually "the things I wanted to do in the active hours i might get". It is the exhaustion of doing the thing my brain isn't built to do.

Dishes, maybe. Art, perhaps cleaning, you improvise and give those up, and then you regret it, it makes you feel empty, so you make sure to make time for what must be done.

You're neurodivergent so these things aren't really negotiable, to do the job, you need to be healthy, to be healthy you need to support the bits you can't ignore like that! Why work otherwise? You draw a line. "My health first"

Then they ask you to put a bit more effort in.
You're being asked to put work first ahead of everything, now also including the proof required for performance management. This work isnt getting done, of course, because youre sacrificing your health for work that you cant focus on. this is now a threat to your income- if youre not working, how will you buy food to eat?! So you just skip lunch again (haha oopsie but times are hard and EVERYONE has to try harder!) You just try hard, so hard, every day that it destroys you, and they go "oh dear irresponsible of you to be destroyed"

You're not spending more time on things because you don't have it, you have your active hours and very little else. More effort eats at your life, and performance management pushes more of your brain to how much you're being marked as "not good enough" and "must improve" and "more effort" is needed. Your mental health degrades of course, your self-confidence, as you put "more effort" into work, you put less effort into yourself. Everything starts to drop into burnout, your boss turns up the heat by ignoring the terms in your plan, the few scraps you could muster that were actual real changes that help.

Your output drops. Your mood drops. Everything drops. The performance management team gets upset because you haven't been improving, not that you haven't been trying. That needle has been in the red for months, again, like you said you wouldn't do, but they've had you on a performance plan for months now trying to avoid a discrimination suit. They claim that they want to support you, but if you need something specific? Policy doesn't support that.

So they don't support you, they don't support your needs, they allow their systems to discriminate against you through apathy, and they simply wait for the paperwork to escort you out.

If your support plan has a potential end with dismissal, it isn't a support plan. It is a way for your company to fire you for being disabled. It is a way for the company to protect itself from the idea that it didn't try.

They enshrine their failure to engage with reality in administrative nuclear glass and pass down judgment from on-high. "We would not try to hurt you" the forked tongue whips through their teeth. "We are ssssimply making sssssure that we have written down every single thing that you have done in a negative persssspective, if only you had written down all of your acheivementssssss.
You say your disability is in organisation and recall? What a Ssssssshame, what an eassssy win."

And if we get mad about it? Hmph. That's gross misconduct. Easy win.

I ain't gonna let 'em get away with it. This far, no further.

Een paar van mijn bespiegelingen op de recente verkiezingsuitslagen, op Doorbraak.eu:

"Nu de PVV met 37 zetels in de Tweede Kamer komt, kunnen we er niet langer meer omheen: extreem-rechts domineert het politieke landschap in Nederland. [...] Met name voor gemarginaliseerde groepen in onze samenleving zal dit aanzienlijke consequenties hebben. Tegelijkertijd moeten we niet doen alsof hier sprake is van een verschuiving in de politieke taal en verhoudingen: het Nederland van Rutte’s VVD wás in veel opzichten al extreem-rechts."

https://www.doorbraak.eu/nederland-was-al-extreem-rechts-alleen-kunnen-we-er-nu-niet-meer-omheen/

When the right and the centrists tell you voting for them is the only way of stopping the rise of fascism, do not believe them. The centrist approach to fighting fascism is to pander to fascist voters by adopting positions increasingly close to the fascism they’re try to fight. Not only is the end result more fascism but this also normalizes it, laying the groundwork for a fascist landslide like we saw in The Netherlands today.

Vote for people on the actual left, who see fascism for what is.

@VeryBadLlama I was reminded very strongly of this one I just saw the other day:

dieser ticket presale ist so ein ableistisches scheißsystem. Da werden menschen mit kürzerer reaktionszeit, schlechterer Internetanbindung oder vielleicht auch einfach Motorik rausgefiltert und nur die schnellsten und "ablen" kommen durch.
I'm out. Fuck this.
#37c3

this review for graffiti ink on etsy is sending me

Feeling very 2016 as today is our 24th of june 2016 and our 9th of november 2016 all rolled into one. Both disastrous results are 7 years ago and haven’t turned out great. You’d think we wouldn’t make the same mistake. But we did and now we have to go through the same pain we saw the folks in America and Britain go through. We weren’t the first western nation to fuck up like this but I hope we’re the last.