Sven Slootweg (soft-deprecated) @joepie91@pixie.town

it's a direct spit in the face of me and other future young queer creators who are afraid of being erased too. it's like he is saying "see what i did? i can just steal your shit and claim it as mine. no matter how much you worked. no matter how much you love your craft or fought for your rights. no matter how much you sacrificed. i will leave you in dust while you will perish. leave. no one needs you." this is the message i get.

and to see james do the same thing to other creators, who fallen victims to the AIDS epidemic that shattered the queer community, that left so many people in misery...is disgusting. it's a direct spit not only in the face of the people who had their work stolen by james, but queer community at large. (4/?)

the fact that i exist right now, that you read my posts right now, is in spite of all of that. in spite of all of the erasure. of all the hate and abuse. and i am incredibly lucky to have people who support me. there are teens my age *who never made it*. and their memory was desecrated by their parents, their peers, their family, their society. their names disregarded, their identities misgendered. stripped off the last dignity they could've had

every day i exist in a country which gov wants people like me dead, among people who think i am some kind of terrorist or an "agent of western world that wants to destroy us". or that i am out to get someone's kids because i am transgender. or that i am a "son who lost his way and needs god and punishment in his life". among people who don't care to stand up for my rights, because they think they're not necessary or "distract from class war"

you see, i am a queer film student myself. just like james. i am currently my second year into my studies, and i want to create art and videos on youtube and movies and tv series and videogames. and i feel so afraid because i am so unprivileged that i feel like i might be erased without a trace if i ever catch someone's eye. and james' success gave me some kind of hope.

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i think what the entire somerton situation taught me is to not to make any idols or idealized role models out of people. you see, i used to be a huge fan of james. i saw him as a part of some kind of modern day queer and leftist intelligentsia. i treated his videos like lectures. i even donated to him. and hbomberguy's video just...left no room for any doubt that he was a scammer and a liar.

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"Drop" is probably the most useful concept that I don't think is widely understood outside the kink community but applies to SO MUCH STUFF in everyday life.

Drop is the shitty feeling you get after an intense experience (including an intense positive experience). It's sometimes immediate, but sometimes the day after or some other time. "Post-con depression" is a form of drop. In the kink community, we try really hard to stop drop from happening with aftercare, but outside of the scene you don't often get the chance to build in aftercare to intense experiences.

Different people find different things helpful for dealing with it. Rest is generally good, as is doing things you like, sugary foods, and recognising that you are in drop and not putting too much pressure on yourself.

allowing yourself to do what you need to get through drop is crucial (imo) to allowing positive experiences to stay positive, and to deal with the emotional effects of negative ones.

someone should do a study on the relationship between the price of admission for public baths in in different cities of the roman empire and the concentration of twinks in the same cities during the 21st century

When people say "we need laws" what they usually mean is "we need enforcement".
Most of the stuff we don't like is already illegal. Those laws just aren't enforced.

We can just strap little filters to our faces and not get shitty sicknesses anymore, that is so cool!!

Since it's that time of year where people everywhere start asking me whether I'm coming to #37c3, here's my answer:

No, it is not possible for me to come, because the orga has chosen not to implement any COVID safety precautions, forcing me to choose between "keeping my kidneys working" and "attending a hacker event".

Currently working on (vector) input prompts which will include icons for all common controllers, plus keyboard and mouse! Once released they'll be available for free, public domain (CC0)

#gamedev #gameassets

if you make a möbius strip out of double-sided tape, does it stop being double-sided?

If you think posting about alcohol or drugs without a content warning, please kindly fuck off and never show up on my timeline ever again.

It’s kinda weird that ENT (Ear, Nose, Throat) doctors in Germany have zero air filters installed in their waiting rooms, walk around without masks and complain about their employees calling in sick. Anyway. I was the only one wearing a mask and thankfully no one tried to discuss.

Hello, friend!

I have to say, in the successive wakes of big media companies losing licenses for and deactivating access to digital media (books, music, video), I'm thinking that if purchased licenses cannot legally be perpetual, what's to keep us from deciding not to respect copyright?

If I've licensed a shitload of digital media and I want perpetual private access, wouldn't torrenting and archive.org and other ways to get that content be at least morally/ethically right?

Note I haven't done anything like download torrents of all the movies, ebooks, and music that I've licensed through various media companies. But I sure am thinking about it. And thinking about whether I have local storage to support it. The cloud is "convenient" but not if they can take away my viewing permissions arbitrarily.