personal, mh
so far i have to:
- talk to amaroq and help hir find a job
- go and finish all analyses on my leg and see doctors about my illnesses so i can go and dodge the army
- finish three homework assignments that are hanging over me
- find a way to keep working on my art projects
- find a way to help my usian friends and my gf
- find a way to move away from my family
- find a job
- all the while having to face with the fact that world is going to shit
i just want to curl up and cry
personal, mh
what am i supposed to do with this life? i am young, but to what end? i am poor, i can't afford to go to guitar lessons anymore, i can't afford to learn singing, i can't afford going to the art school, i can't afford to learn how to write, i can't afford to learn other languages, and most importantly, i can't find time to practice any of those without responsibilities or my exhaustion killing me. i am barely surviving. when i will live?
serious answer: personal, mh
@mynameistillian For what it's worth, for me it took until my 30s to really 'have something to live for' in this sense. Which isn't how it should have been, but.
serious answer: personal, mh
@joepie91 i just look at my life fly by and there's nothing i can do about it.
serious answer: personal, mh
@mynameistillian Which is to say, that it takes long doesn't mean it won't happen