I *dream* of waking up at 6, going for a morning run then feeling refreshed and productive before lectures even begin

instead i scramble to wake up just in time, rushing a shower and coffee and eating brealfast during the lecture

had a good long shower with Thoughts and I need some kind of time tracking system
then roughly planning my day in segments by activity (sport, lectures, *must* TODO items, personal TODO/projects) then nicely interspersed with breaks

if this works im absolutely overengineering some device for it, with nixie tubes or something, but for now I need to figure out what works

today is messy because it's already half done but I should definitely be able to dedicate some time to planning tomorrow/rest of week
'Today is the first day of the rest of your life' is corny as hell but comes through my mind way too often

not sure where this spark of hope came from because I've tried this before and failed, but maybe I know enough how to take breaks/not pressure myself too much when it doesn't

or maybe not and it all fails, but can't really get worse so

i will now shut up