Local moth fairy loves lämp, more at 11 @elfi@pixie.town

Make that two

For some reason I'm waiting on a third I guess?

One box of medical supplies arrived, yay

oh my gosh oh my gosh oh my gosh Akiko Shikata put out a single with the full version of Moonlight Concert, the Liar Princess ending/trailer theme

I want it but also it'd cost me $50 to mail it over here weh

she's lämp
she's lämp
she's lämp
she's by my bed

I had another vivid dream last night. I was a girl living in a forest, who found some abandoned and broken lockboxes, and was then imprisoned by imperial military soldiers who were tracking them down and rounded up everyone they came across.

I woke in my cell with a feeling of some kind of synergy with nature and primal instinct, and I broke out and, well, slaughtered the guards with my bare hands (claws?) before fleeing. I returned to the lockboxes to try and figure out what was in them but was shot by a military chopper, only for my wounds to heal immediately at the temporary expense of my connection with nature, and fled again.

Afterwards, when my connection came back, the world spoke as a gestalt entity to me, explaining that the world was mostly desert due to the empire's aggressive expansion and consumption, and that forest stood because it held the concentrated essence of the world and guarded it fiercely, which inadvertently led to the empire's "undesirables" fleeing persecution into the forest. I was the child of two of those people, and thus the empire didn't even consider me human, apparently.

The world also told me the emperor had discovered the essence and had a force sneak in to try and steal it so that he could use it to obtain godhood, and it influenced the winds to crash the chopper it was being shipped out on, where it dissipated amongst the wreckage and I inadvertently bathed in it, essentially becoming its host.

Eventually it became clear to me that the emperor's scientists managed to recover enough of the dissipated essence to create something like it, which forcefully drew its power from nature rather than sharing it for common good, so I took the fight to him.

In the ensuing clash, both of us quickly rended each other's earthly forms asunder and continued as beings of essence incarnate, with me taking the ethereal form of a bright vermillion fox while his was a gigantic blue pig , and I realized continuing the fight as it stood would simply suck the world dry, so I led him back to the forest, asked it for every bit of strength it could spare, and then bodily rammed the emperor into the stratosphere before punching through him, scattering our collective essences across the world and beginning a slow healing process.

I eventually reformed in my spiritual body, and went on to live in isolation in the forest under the care of my priestess because much of my strength was given back to the world, and spent most of my time bathing because it let me create and maintain a physical shape from the water with minimal effort.

The emperor, shattered so thoroughly, still reformed in a sense by mixing with my essence, and was reborn physically as a blue fox with the same potential as me but none of the attunement, nor any memories. He sought me ought to try and learn of himself, so I sent him on a quest to explore the world and see what became of the empire.

...anyway now I have an aqueous fox spirit fursona on the mind

Today was better than yesterday and I managed to get a fair bit done, and I'm happy with myself for that

Days like this I'm glad I put down the money for big luna because snuggling her throughout the day has been the only thing keeping me from having a total breakdown

I'm feeling kind of frazzled looking for some of the things GRS Montreal recommends picking up; especially between the amount of variety for some items I've not had to look for before, and then the ones that I simply can't find and perhaps am looking in the wrong places for.

I wonder if there's a site that provides guidance on this sort of thing or if I'll have to reach out to friends @_@