@daughterofrao
Sometimes when it's the end of the night or we feel very safe and present, we get blendy and are all/almost all kinda there. Feels a bit like adhd meds but without the anxiety?

@juno for us it was this time shortly after recovering from a very mad mental state (cause got triggered... repeatedly).

We never payed attention on who's front on meds... certainly not all present tho... our little one never showed up on meds and also parts of us which are in a quite bad state haven't been.

You get anxiety from meds?

@daughterofrao
we get anxiety because we are more open to perception and some of us get triggered very easily like that probably, and heartrate shenanigans probably too. it's a bit of a mess inside. Not all of us present with meds usually either, but many. Or like.. their skills and some memories? Not their feelings for the most part.
just thought we would share in case info is helpful for yous. Didn't wanna make this about us. Sorry. :/

@juno don't be sorry, its interesting to see your perspective... we can learn form that, get new ideas... we didn't check heartrate... might wanna monitor that next time...

For us, we always have basically access to all memories (except traumata guarded by trauma holders) and skills we have seem to be mostly accessible to (learning new one's different tho)

@daughterofrao
wow you& seem... organized/structured(?) in practical ways. That's very useful it seems. We don't always know where the trauma begins and ends in comparison to regular memories, so that could be why? We are a forest with a very new digital to mycelium-root access point if you can deal with layered metaphors.