And yeah, I gotta be honest with you: it was a very funny and insightful moment to have spent a deeply wonderful and transforming weekend mostly offline, then briefly hopping back onto the fediverse to see racists crashing tf out 😭😭

Like these weirdos are quadrupling down on misgendering me (I'm not a trans man, he/him are not my primary pronouns) because it makes them feel alive and gets their dick hard, meanwhile I'm literally living my best Black trans life right now 😁😁😁

Like my name was popping up this weekend even though I was completely absent from the discourse!!! That's wild lol, but it's not the first time I've had the experience of too-online antisocial racists fixating on me, it won't be the last. These people's lives are quite literally fuller and richer when they spend their time focusing on me & any other Black person they feel jealous of or inferior to, because their lives are otherwise that meaningless.

Mannnn I'm even so satisfied with my emotional life right now that to my utter shock and slight horror, I find myself feeling a little sorry for these poor unfortunate souls.

Like idk, while they were drooling over their keyboard as they frantically misgendered me over and over again I was literally tdick-deep in my first ever threesome. 🤷🏾

You gotta feel bad for them, a little bit!!! That this is how they're choosing to spend their life!!!

Only a little bit though 😂

Cause it is a choice!!!! They could make another one, but this is what they're choosing to do.

But I also feel bad bc........listen. I'm trying to tell you. As a (sigh) niche internet micro celebrity (I dislike thinking of myself this way but it is what it is), I've had ppl fixate on me for extended periods of time, and it never ends well..........for *them*. I've seen ppl build entire politics and personalities around me calling them antiblack one time in 2013, and it's.......euugghh. Not Good

It's much better for us all to focus on our own lives and making them something that we personally find worth living. I've been fighting hard to do that for a very long time, and most of that fight has taken place offline. And things are far from perfect but fuck, like......... I'm living in a Black af and gay af city that I love. This month marks my 6 month anniversary with my hot they/them transmasc boyfriend who has one of the biggest hearts I've ever been blessed to experience in my life.