meds... but not
Why do I feel a lil like on MPH but we didn't take any today?... we just switched to... idk who I am!
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@daughterofrao
Sometimes when it's the end of the night or we feel very safe and present, we get blendy and are all/almost all kinda there. Feels a bit like adhd meds but without the anxiety?
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@juno for us it was this time shortly after recovering from a very mad mental state (cause got triggered... repeatedly).
We never payed attention on who's front on meds... certainly not all present tho... our little one never showed up on meds and also parts of us which are in a quite bad state haven't been.
You get anxiety from meds?
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@daughterofrao
we get anxiety because we are more open to perception and some of us get triggered very easily like that probably, and heartrate shenanigans probably too. it's a bit of a mess inside. Not all of us present with meds usually either, but many. Or like.. their skills and some memories? Not their feelings for the most part.
just thought we would share in case info is helpful for yous. Didn't wanna make this about us. Sorry. :/
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@daughterofrao
wow you& seem... organized/structured(?) in practical ways. That's very useful it seems. We don't always know where the trauma begins and ends in comparison to regular memories, so that could be why? We are a forest with a very new digital to mycelium-root access point if you can deal with layered metaphors.
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@juno we're not that organized...
memories ... we know there's trauma cause trauma holder told there is, more I can not tell you, we don't know and they won't tell.
generally organized? we used to be before the last big trauma... with time share for headmates each day, like at least 30min for Lexi to learn languages...
We lost that due to what happened... hoping we can get that back, eventually.
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@daughterofrao
yeah new trauma and retraumatization can mess things up internally quite severely... we just came out of a four year depersonalization/fawn/freeze state four weeks ago (almost exactly) and have to reorganize and get to know ourselves/each other again too. We wish you& a lot of rain, sunlight and storm to keep the fog at bay when it's not the right time for it.
may the stream of consciousness nourish the fauna too.
children seem to often wish others what they want themselves if they care.
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@juno thanks...
regarding that last sentence... we're mostly children... young system (as in headmate ages)
meds... but not, own experience with this in case you& want to hear?
@juno don't be sorry, its interesting to see your perspective... we can learn form that, get new ideas... we didn't check heartrate... might wanna monitor that next time...
For us, we always have basically access to all memories (except traumata guarded by trauma holders) and skills we have seem to be mostly accessible to (learning new one's different tho)