I hate inebriated me. I hate that person so much. I don't want to be them anymore.

I can't trust them, either

I don't want my partner to have to be this person's partner. I don't want my friends to have to be this person's friends. I don't want my dog to have to be this person's companion. I think I'm a fairly decent human being when I'm sober, and that's the best reason I have for staying sober

I'm sorry, I'm scared to death of another withdrawal and I need to pep talk myself into this. This is gonna talk a lot of patience and love for myself and lorazepam

It was so funny when I talked to the social worker at the social psychiatry office, I was like "I've been drinking too much since lockdown" and she just mumbled "Everyone has" under her breath