the mirror (notoriously unreliable) says i look masc

so either
- i actually look masc (bad)
- or i simply look ugly and mistake it for looking masc (less bad)
- or i actually look pretty and am just not my type (good)
- or i actually look pretty and, coincidentally, also am my own type, but don't see it most of the time bc body dysmorphia or smth (also good)

i think it's case 3 or 4, perhaps 2, but prolly (hopefully) not 1