gender
more and more convinced that this whole gender thing is a scam
i heard someone say recently that they have a "quantum" gender –it's only there while observed– and it made something click, cause that pretty much matches my own experience. i have no concept of my own gender while im alone. i dont think i have any gender when i dream.
but like im still a girl. i like when people use she/her on me, i like that when im walking down the street people look at me and think "girl".
i dont really know how that makes any sense, but im so tired of giving more thought to this whole gender thing
(its once again bc of the autism, isnt it?)
i heard someone say recently that they have a "quantum" gender –it's only there while observed– and it made something click, cause that pretty much matches my own experience. i have no concept of my own gender while im alone. i dont think i have any gender when i dream.
but like im still a girl. i like when people use she/her on me, i like that when im walking down the street people look at me and think "girl".
i dont really know how that makes any sense, but im so tired of giving more thought to this whole gender thing
(its once again bc of the autism, isnt it?)
re: gender
idk like i am more comfortable as a woman than i ever was as a man, but in some sense it still feels like im playing a role. like it still feels fake yk?
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long, re: gender
@annieversary yea for me there's def A Role that i def am Playing and i am way more comfortable playing it in our accursed cisnormative system.
but i also have an intrinsic gender thing. i dont know where it came from, but its just there. just like hardcoded in. but it's like, a theoretical and minimal set of properties, whereas my imposed stricter gender role comes with a lot more Shit and Baggage .
second hand, but there are a lot of agender people who dont have that intrinsic bit, and then even if i was 'NT enough' to connect the intrinsic bit to the social bit i wouldn't be able to do that.
and i don't anyway most of the time, but it is a hint
