so
i started like 2ish years ago. ive been learning [this version of unravel](https://musescore.com/user/9387251/scores/2579421) for around a year now.

lots of the comments say they got it in 1 hour or that it's so easy or that they're so young and it's so hard to not be jealous of them

i have my things i'm good at but music just requires so so much

basically every piece of music i regularly listen to has been made by an artist with something like a decade ± some years and its just

#### so
### freaking
#### hard
*(to play well)*

my teacher says im making great progress and that i'm very determined but it's so easy to fall in love with other songs and it pains me that I can't play them all that fast yet.

this one i'm currently honeymooning over is something that i'll be able to play in a week or two, and that's still much slower than the prodigy kids or whatnot

i guess its considered a *'talent'* because most people are not able to experiment with their music so easily.

i know once i finish this one i'll be able to get through easier ones much faster but I *cannot wait* and I really wish I had more external bandwidth to this humongous neural network that is my brain ​​