multiple failed attempts at sad-posting and now I'm just pissed, and now I'm mad-posting.

I suck at talking to people so much, like what am i even doing here? what even is this site? what's going on? i try talking to people but it never lasts long, they all have lives but I don't, so i sit around waiting for someone to pay attention to me but it feels like an eternity

God i don't even knkw why im still talking I'm not eben talkinf theres nothing to do except just mope and cry and feel bad about myself because i cant handle living my own life without external attention, I'm needy and clingy, barely able to function outside of that, can't even just survive on my own, craved attention my whole life and barely ever given any I'm satisfied with, i grasp for attention and even when i get it it feels empty, i don't knkw what i want ans I don know how to find what i want, it's a never ending fucking pain that i can't get rid of, a feeling if horrible inadequacy and worthlessness.

I'd make this post follower only but since there's only 5 of you i don't want you to feel like this is directed at any of you. Hellsite is better at screaming into the void but the character limit prevents any long rants like this

Physically in pain rn and it really fucking sucks. Why am i like this.