maybe i just dont wanna play video games anymore

im trying to make sense of why i fell off games. every time i launch a game i feel like i'm committing time and attention that i can't afford to commit, you know what i mean? like i get the same anxiety as when i'm clicking buy on something that is going to mess up my budget. i wonder if my attention just doesn't work with video games anymore

thing is this happened like ten years ago

i just look at games and think "wow this looks really cool i love this story and these characters and these mechanics. dont really feel like turning the crank to make it go though"